MY LIFE, MY WAY, AND MY STORY

Hello bloggers. Tonight feeling so different, huh? Because tomorrow, June 29th 2014 is the first day of Ramadhan! Alhamdulillah. O Allah, I'm so thankful for all the things that You've done for me. Thank you for the chance to meet Ramadhan again this year. How blessed to 'taste' peaceful of Ramadhan. O Allah, You will spread Your mercy, forgiveness, and love in this month. If I can asking for something to You, ya Rabb.. please gimme those all. There's no place to go, to ask, and to return except You. I only a human, where shall I go except to my Creator? O Allah, this month is the right time to repent. Repent for our sins, repent for our mistakes that we have done. Ya Rabb... accept our repent, accept our apologizes, where shall we asking for some apologizes except You? O Allah, please accept our fasting in this Ramadhan, accept our good deeds in this Holy month, ya Rabb. Thank you so much for this chance, and this breath that i breathe. Thank you for the...

Aneh rasanya saat aku membuka kembali memori kecil kisahku, saat aku mulai suka kepada seorang laki-laki dan semua yang aku beri tidak berbuah manis seperti mangga yang diberi karbit. Lucu rasanya saat aku membaca kembali tulisan-tulisan konyol yang membuat perutku seperti dikocok malam ini. Bahasa-bahasa cinta yang oh my God, itu sama sekali tak terbayang jikalau aku bisa menulis sepuitis itu. Haha, memang benar kata orang : "Saat kamu dalam kondisi galau, malah saat itu pula kamu lebih kreatif dari biasanya". Well, percaya nggak percaya sih. Tapi, aku sudah membuktikan, hihi. Apalagi saat membaca bagian cerita yang terkesan mendramatisir keadaan, padahal sebenarnya nggak separah itu, haha. Kejadian saat lost contact misalnya, saat aku mulai tertarik dengan yang lain, saat aku menahan perasaan selama dua tahun lamanya tanpa ada yang mengetahui, kecuali Allah. Hihi, sekarang semua seperti gelas kosong. Hilang begitu saja. Lenyap tak berbekas, rasa yang tak bertuan. Tak bert...

The Climb is a one of Miley Cyrus's songs. I'm gonna write the lyrics over here but I make them relate to what I'm doing, feeling and struggling now. Wish it can motivate everyone whom read this. Check this out :) I can almost see this campus (Bogor Agricultural University), which I've dreamt. But, something is bothering me, something which said that I impossible join here. I can almost see it That dream I’m dreamin But there’s a voice inside my head saying "you’ll never reach it" When I failed to join with the campus above, I felt knock for a moment. I lost my faith for a while. But, I know. It's not the end after all. Every step I’m taking Every move I make feels Lost with ’known direction My faith is shakin But I gotta keep tryin Gotta keep my hand-held high There's so many way to continue my study, even though I might not join with the campus I dreamt. When a door was closed for me. God already prepared a lot of doors which h...