In this devastating moment, I realize
Time is everything
It cannot be rewound, nor repeated
It can only be remembered
I also acknowledge
Someone you love is matter
But he will return to the Creator eventually
And you cannot pause it, nor stop it
It feels hurt only to imagine
How to have such an event happens in a second
Even you are not allowed to gather yourself
Or to process everything
It must be painful
To not knowing what to do next
Whom to have your back after having a bad day at work
Whom will give all he has, only for you
The world crumbles in front of you
The dreams fade away
The future looks blurry
Tomorrow? You do not have a word to say
It is okay to have a heavy grief
After losing a soulmate you love dearly
A soulmate you are extremely proud of
A soulmate who fights for you 'til his last breath
At the end of the day, you may heal
Even though not completely
But through His mercy
You will heal, standing on your feet again
And from heaven, He smilingly sees you with relief
That you are able to recover and start all over again
*side note:
My close friend has just lost her fiancé. They are about to marry this year, but destiny says the other way. It is very sad to see her crying and grieving over him like that. It is just too painful to watch.
What is breaking my heart so bad that... We just happily talked about her wedding plan 3 days before his passing. How happy she was at that moment. Then, the happiness is taken away from her in a blink of an eye.
I write poetries to cope with overloaded sadness lately. It helps me deliver what I am feeling now, especially for her. Knowing the fact I cannot reach her now. She must be still in a shocking state.
I am a person who is not typically doing this. But, now I realize, I am emotionally attached to the ones I care about.
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