MY LIFE, MY WAY, AND MY STORY

summer break kali ini agak berbeda buat gue. bukan hanya karena gue mendekati masa-masa sidang dan pada akhirnya akan balik ke Indonesia, but mentally, I am extremely under pressure. awalnya gue nggak ngerti kenapa gue jadi pusing sendiri, males-malesan, gampang kesulut, disconnecting myself from the world, maunya di kamar aja 24/7. sampai pada akhirnya, gue scrolling di twitter dan nemu istilah burn out. Source: @wantja beberapa tanda-tanda burn out, seperti yang gue sebutkan diatas, sedang gue alami saat ini. bahkan, gue sampai harus konseling ke psikolog (yang mana sangat membantu) supaya gue stay sane. even though konseling ini dimaksudkan untuk kondisi gue yang lain yang nggak perlu gue bagikan disini. setelah gue tarik ke belakang, rupanya gue jadi burn out karena sebelum-sebelumnya gue udah worked damn hard to finish my thesis, which eventually I did. however, dampaknya baru kerasa sekarang. ketika gue udah menyelesaikan tugas akhir, professor gue menyarankan untuk menulis jurna

It has been a while since my last visit here. I still save some drafts of my posts that I would like to share but I think I need more time to complete the writing. I also recently got vaccinated against COVID19 and now my left arm is sore. Hence, I decided to write this light post instead.  Well, hi! I guess? How are you doing? I hope those who are reading my post now are doing good. If not, I hope you will soon find your tune.  A lot of events happened in the past 3 months, from March to June. I even was able to lose some weight off (yay!). After that, I had my hemorrhoid back and it was my breaking point since I had had the procedure to remove it. But yeah, sometimes, you have to admit that you contribute to worsening your own health, have not you? However, I am 100% good now. I managed to recover and it was the longest period of recovering from a hemorrhoid I have ever gone through! I wish I never have that back again. Hopefully. Currently, I am working my ass off on my master's

halo! it has been a long time I did not write here. yep, my hands were full of books as I had my final exams last week. it was tough, yet I made it. what a relief! anyway, how are you? I hope you are doing great! 2020 was a crazy year, was not it? and, 2021 probably gonna be challenging too. but, at least, we are prepared and have learned so much from the past year. I wish. [source: personal documentation] ah yeah. the moment I am writing this, the winter is slowly saying goodbye. the spring starts to warmly welcome us. I enjoyed the winter so much like a kid. did not care what people say. just experienced this rare weather to the fullest! I am a "tropical girl", what did you expect when I saw the snow?  in 2019, we did not have winter that much. a lack of snow and pretty warm. however, this year was totally different. my friends and I even were able to sled, made several snowmen, threw the snow at each other, even hiked to the mountain to see the frozen lake, called Morskie

Hari ini langit diatasku berwarna biru muda Matahari pun bersinar cerah, walaupun masih malu-malu bersembunyi di balik awan Suasana membuat hati jauh lebih hangat Seakan tiada beban yang berarti di pundak ini Sayangnya, orang lain tidak bernasib sama Langit di atasnya berwarna kelabu Muram, sendu, namun tidak syahdu Rintik hujan pun menemani perasaan rindu Rindu akan seseorang yang tidak akan kembali  Karena telah dipanggil oleh Sang Ilahi Mencoba menata hati yang remuk hari ini Akibat kehilangan seseorang yang dicintai Kematian memang sering begitu Tidak pernah pandang bulu kepada siapa ia akan bertemu Entah besok, lusa, hari ini, atau bertahun-tahun lagi Ia adalah keniscayaan bagi mereka yang bernyawa hari ini Atau bahkan, detik ini Bulan Februari harusnya menjadi bulan terindah bagi putrinya Mengucapkan janji sehidup semati dengan pria pujaan hati Pria yang juga dipilihkan dan diridhoi Sayangnya, Allah punya rencana yang jauh lebih indah untuknya Hari ini, 10 Januari 2021, di hadapa