MY LIFE, MY WAY, AND MY STORY

Hello there! I hope you alright. May Allah always keep you safe yaa :) Well. Actually, I really want to write something nice or interesting, but I dunno where I should start it lol. Okay, continue then. Today was a really good day *it should be*. I thought it was, but fact said it wasn't. But, I have to thank to my bestie whom already paid me 2 glasses of chocolate ice cream, it's nice and has delicious taste btw, thank you. Even thought actually i want more, haha nono just kidding. Hmm... Today should be nice, but why i couldn't enjoy it totally? *confused* *ngg....* Well..maybe because today was cloudy and the rain fell down. I dunno...*loadinggggg* Nono.. ngg well.. because of something, and this is silly thing and -_________- AWWWWWKWARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE TO SAY THIS, BUT ALMOST ALL THE TIME (RED : TODAY) I WAS SHOW MY CUTE FAKE SMILE :"""""""

Mungkin memang Tuhan mengirimkanku untuk mengisi bagian yang rumpang didalam puzzle kehidupanmu. Mungkin juga, Tuhan mengerti jika aku yang memahamimu di suatu kondisi yang memang orang lain tak memahami. Suatu hari kamu pun pernah mengatakan, bahwa aku adalah pelengkapmu. Aku adalah sayap yang dikirimkan Tuhan untukmu. Mengimbangi dan membantumu untuk terbang. Laksana seorang burung kecil nan cantik, yang baru menetas dan mulai mencari arahnya. Suatu hari, aku menghilang. Aku menemukan seseorang yang sebelumnya aku pikir adalah orang yang sempurna, bahkan melebihi dirimu. Seseorang yang aku pikir bisa mengarahkan aku dalam hal apapun. Bahkan aku sempat berpikir, dia adalah kayu penopang saat aku dahanku mulai rapuh. Kamu pun mulai merasakan, sayapmu bergetar. Seakan-akan ia ingin melepaskan diri dari tubuhmu. Engkau pun mulai meronta kesakitan. Sakit yang teramat. Saat sayap kirimu benar-benar bergetar malam itu, engkau hanya bisa diam dan pasrah menerima. Melihat kenyataan, bahwa

Sebenarnya jika kita tanya hati kita paling dalam. Apakah kita mengerti dengan semua bacaan Sholat yang kita baca? Memang jika kita ingin mengetahui dan mengerti apa yg kita lafadzkan saat kita Sholat, maka hal itu akan sangat jauh lebih baik, malah mungkin jika kita resapi kita akan mendapatkan apa   itu ke Khusyuk an dlm melaksanakan Sholat Fardhu kita. Rasulullah SAW bersabda “sholatlah seakan-akan engkau sedang melihat Tuhan atau Tuhan sedang melihatmu” ( Rukun Ihsan ) .   Mari kita mulai belajar meresapi arti dari bacaan Sholat kita. Karena Sholat merupakan Dzikir yang sempurna. Takbir Takbiratul Ihram —-> ALLAAHU AKBAR                                (Allah Maha Besar) Iftitah Allaahu akbar kabiira, walhamdulillaahi katsiira, wa subhanallaahi bukrataw, waashiila. (Allah Maha Besar, dan Segala Puji yang sangat banyak bagi Allah, dan Maha Suci Allah sepanjang pagi, dan petang). Innii wajjahtu wajhiya, lillazii fatharassamaawaati walardha, haniifam, muslimaa,

Maybe you think I'm too much about you , is not it? But this is fact , and this is what I feel. Moreless, almost 2 years I've known you, as a brother, best friend, and my super friend. W hen I'm sad because was left by the ex- boyfriend, or when my achievment starts to decrease, or even I'm sad for no reason, you are the person who always be there. something so silly isn't it? I really miss the time, where we both studied evening, even until very midnight, staying up late, but always I who woke up late hahaha. Talked about things that seemed important, but not at all. Nah ! we always talked about the people we love, this is the most interesting topic. Discussed the advantages, always adored the people we love, and sometimes we made ​​annoyed when people we like it not sensitive to our feelings haha, felt sick : D When we quarrel was, honestly I felt lost. Like there was something missing, which was usually always caring, always giving the news, joking with s

  Lately, I do miss the old moments. All things, memories, that had passed. Laugh and smile, pain and cry, happy and sad. I almost can't find it now. I just can't differ them. Sometimes, it's annoying when I dunno what I feeling. One thing that I miss the most is my friendship, my "unfake" smile and free time. Last year, when I was on 11th grade. On March exactly, I got my freedom. I was being single, until now actually. But, now and last year, everything was so different. Last year, I was like, I was the flying bird. So free, enjoyed all my free time with my best friends. Hang out, have lunch together, went to the cinema or some of recreation places. Now, I am single. But feeling so burdened. I get some of unfix problems. I pretend to be like "OH, I AM OKAY!". I just don't wanna show my sadness or unfix problems and put it on my face and show my bad mood face in front of my friends, and my friends say "Hey, what's going on?" and

Assalamu'alaikum. Hello bloggers! How are yaa? I hope you are all good and Allah takes care of you guys. Well, now I'd like to tell you about my great experience of English Olympiad that had been held by SSC. Okay, let's we start ;) Before, on October 20th 2013 had held the preliminary round. From 70 participants, only 20 were taken into the final. In final, the finalists had to make the story telling about "MY HERO". We were given 3 days only to make it and then gave it to the jury. I had chosen my daddy as my hero for my story telling. It was easy to write about my daddy, because i just wrote the truth of him, so it was so natural. We had through 3 days, it was tired day because we had to continue to consult with Mom Sol , our English teacher to revise the results of our story telling writing . We went home late, freak out when we made mistake on our paper of the story telling. But, Alhamdulillah we had done it well. We just prayed and prayed,

Assalamu'alaikum. Ayah, apa kabar hari ini? Semoga Allah terus memberi perlindungan, kesehatan, barokah umur, pokoknya yang baik-baik deh buat Ayah. Sebelumnya, Cas mau berterimakasih sama Ayah, karena udah jadi my super super hero selama ini. Cuma dengan tulisan ini, Cas bisa bener-bener ungkapin apa yang Cas rasakan selama jadi anak perempuan kesayangan Ayah. Semoga Ayah baca yaaa... Dear Ayah.. Di usiamu yang sudah menginjak angka 43 pada tahun 2013 ini, wajahmu sudah mulai menunjukkan garis-garis tua. Kantung matamu juga sudah semakin lebar dan tampak jelas. Apalagi, pekerjaanmu di kantor yang membuatmu terlihat terbebani, walaupun aku tau, engkau bukan tipe orang yang suka mengeluh. Ya, aku kagum padamu Ayah! Tanpa rasa lelah dan keluh kesah sedikit pun, engkau jalani semuanya dengan ikhlas. Jalani kewajiban sebagai seorang "buruh" kantoran, seperti yang sering kau bilang padaku. Kau juga sering bilang padaku, "Jangan pernah jadi seperti Ayah, jadi buruh sep

Assalamu'alaikum. Hello bloggers, long time I didn't post on here. Miss ya :) Nah! Now, I'd like to share my experience when I followed an Engslih competition in State University of Malang, East Java, Indonesia. Check this out... Well, on Saturday 12th October 2013 was held 11th National English Olympiad in State University of Malang. Our school sent 12 participants, included me to joined this competition. It was great experience because, this is National competition, and we had to left our school activities and lessons. But, we weren't regret, because the experiences were more interesting! We had prepared all things, included the materials of the competetion, the stuffs, and etc. And absolutely we had prayed before we went to the university, place where the competetion would be held.  We went to the place of the competition at 05.30 by my car. My dad picked us up to the university. -+ 1,5 hours left, we arrived! We were optimistic, we had prayed, and we had tr

Tidak munafik, aku pun pernah merasakan hal yang sama. Rasa yang tiba-tiba datang, dan menyapa kekosongan hati. Ya, sedikit mengganggu memang.Terkadang, kamu bahkan dengan konyol menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti, atau bahkan membolak balik handphonemu hanya untuk menunggu miscall atau sekedar sms dari seseorang yang memang benar-benar kamu harapkan. Terkadang pula, kamu begitu dikecewakan, karena secercah harapmu tidak semanis apa yang kamu dapatkan. Saat kamu melihatnya dari jarak yang tidak bisa kamu gapai dalam genggaman tanganmu, saat kamu hanya bisa melihat senyumnya ditepi matamu, dan mata cokelat tua yang tersenyum bahagia, damai menyapa hati nan syahdu, itu kan rasanya? Rasa yang tidak bisa diungkapkan dengan jejeran alphabet, tidak pula bisa diungkapkan dalam puisi manis yang terkadang hanya membual, tapi hanya bisa diresapi dan disentuh disini, hati. Kamu tidak peduli, entah dia tahu atau tidak. Yang terpenting bagimu adalah bagaimana kamu terus berada didekatnya, atau

Hello bloggers! It has been long time for us not to meet each other, where have I been lately? *hahaha lol*. Well, I miss you guys so much much *ciih* :p kidding! I was so busy lately. Yes, you know I am in 12 grade now so there's no time to just wasting my time by online, bloging, or just surfing on internet. By the way, Alhamdulillah now I am 17 years old, on sept 4th 2013 ago exactly *prokprokprok* *claps* :D norak banget! Nah! First, I am so much grateful and thankful to ALLAH SWT, MY LORD, MY EVERYTHING! Because He has given me a lot of happiness, sadness, and anything in this world. So blessed having Him as My Lord and My Guardian :). And, second for my lovely parents because They have took care of me all along this time 'til I was 'touch' 17 years old. They are best parents ever for me <3 love yaaa. And my lil bro, who always mock me but I love you, if you know that. Sometimes feel so empty when you are gone, the pieces of my heart are missin you haha lol

  Thump of bombs broke the silence of the night Force the childrens wake up in midnight And seeing the worst thing they ever see Military shoot their parents in front of their eyes Blood is everywhere Suddenly the tears falling down Heart feels like cut And the knees weak to stay standing up Fighters, one by one falling Prayers endlessly spoken For those who have died In defense of His religion Prayers never stop For those who are still in struggling For those who are never give up For those who are standing wave the flag of Islam No matter how small their lives at stake They survive above ground hot -blooded By holding the stones They calling الله أكبر for ALLAH's religion.  Against the Zionists and opponents of Islamic sharia They believe that Allah always be there for them They believe that Allah will always by their side They believe that Allah would be shaded them by His mercy  Oh.. My brothers  I just can pray for you Everyda

Assalamu'alaikum. Hello bloggers, we meet again. For now, I'm gonna share about the condition in Syria. I just saw on facebook, the information of Syria, and it was so bad and suddenly my tears falling down, til now I am writing this, my tears still can't stop :'( Sometimes I thought that : "HEY? WHAT HAPPEN WITH HUMAN RIGHTS? DOES IT UNIMPORTANT AGAIN? DOES IT GONE? WHY ALWAYS MUSLIMS? WHY ALWAYS US? WHY THEY ARE ALWAYS MURDER US? KILL US?"  I saw on one of Islamic figure's facebook in Indonesia, He posted about the condition of Syria. I will copy part of it "@AlArabiya_Eng: #BreakingNews: #FSA spokesman says 1188 people killed in "Eastern Ghouta Massacre" #Syria"   (If you don't know the meaning of 2nd and 3rd paragraph, please visit google translate, use Indonesian ~ *your language*) How's your feeling after knowing this truth? Our brothers and sisters killed by vile regime Bashar Assad, with ch

Hello bloggers! I'm gonna tell you, what's the meaning of #R4BIA? Why all people suddenly using R4BIA avatar on blackberry messenger, twitter, or facebook? 1) Well, on Saturday last week (August 17th 2013), the Ministry of Turkey, Recep Tayip Erdogan condemned about massacres that was done by Egyptian army on Friday and Saturday last week at Ramses Square and Fatih Mosque which surrounded by Egyptian army. 2) in Arabic, Rabi'ah/Arba'ah means 4. Rab'ah (4) has been used to a symbol of firmness , strength , resistance and unity to the whole world who love freedom .  3) 4 finger symbol as a symbol to commemorate protesters Pro Mursi headquarters in Rabi'a has been destroyed by the Egyptian army . 4 symbols for pointing finger icon Rabi'a .  4) The purpose of avatar symbol of #R4BIA used by advocates Egypt/President Morsi on social media such as facebook, twitter, blackberry messenger and etc as a form of solidarity an

Hello bloggers! Alkhamdulillah we meet again. But now, I'm not gonna share about happy, silly, or sweet thing but I will share about sad thing. About War is going on in Egypt. 638 people died and 10.000 people wounded. Masha Allah, okay next! Moreless in a week, Egypt is in emergency condition now. You know why? Because there's fighting between demonstrators who supporting president Mursi and the Egyptian army military. There is also a military coup. The President was overthrown by the Egyptian military itself. And I can't even imagine how's the condition over there now, I feel so sad to hear that.  I have a friend in Egypt. I was chatting with him this morning. He lives in Alexandria, Al Iskandariyah, Egypt. I asked about the condition over there, because I saw on TV about the condition and it was so bad. And He answered like this (REAL NO EDITED): " i am fine but mesir is not fine at all tomorrow more will die in mesir please bray for us :( the m

  Assalamu'alaikum bloggers! We meet again! Long time no see yaa, right? Btw, HAPPY EID MUBARAK TO ALL MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS ALL AROUND THE WORLD!!! How was your eid? It was sweet and happy, wasn't it? Alkhamdulillah, Allah still gave us chance to met Eid Mubarak 1434H. So blessed! Nah, because I live in Indonesia that has so many cultures. So, I celebrated my Eid by MUDIK! There's no MUDIK word in English dictionary i think, hehe. Okay, I just let me explain it. Mudik is seems like we go to our hometown, for visit our mom or dad (If I, I visited my grandpa because I still live with my parents). We usually have 1 or 2 weeks off school/works, and usually 7 days to go before Eid Mubarak, some people are begin to go to their each hometown. Feeling happy because we will meet our family, even though the road gets rough and traffic jam everywhere, but thats not the matter. The point is gathering with big family haha. Nah! Thats a little about "MUDIK". And guess

   Hello bloggers! Ramadhan goes so fast, right? Unconsciously, we almost reach 29th days of Ramadhan Mubarakah. Masha Allah..... Sometimes, I'm thinking. Are we meet again with Ramadhan next year? Are we? Ramadhan next year, will always be there but we may not! So sad when I realize about that. Feel like, I want to stop the time and return 29 days ago. When we were start Ramadhan with happiness, welcome this Holy month, where we can increase our the reward as much as possible and removes sins by repentance door wide open. And now, this month will be passed :'( IF THIS IS MY LAST RAMADHAN......... If I know, when, where, and how I will pass away, I will prepare it as well as I can. But, but what my powers ? Only the one almighty ALLAH of everything. He has the controls of anything in this universe. He has chosen, He has planned, He has created the destiny of us. He absolutely already consider it all. Subhanallah.... We are just humans, we are weak, we

 Hello bloggers! Ketemu lagi sama saya, huehehe. Lama nggak ngepost nih, jadi kangen :3 *eh Oh iya, Alkhamdulillah banget sekarang udah memasuki hari ke 22, dan malam ke 23 bulan Ramadhan. Alkhamdulillah masih diberi kesempatan untuk merasakan suasananya sampai detik ini :). Bloggers gimana nih? Puasa kan? Puasa dongss :D Oke! Cusss to the point aja ya. Pasti penasaran dengan judul yang aku buat, tapi ini berdasarkan kisah nyata yang sungguh miris dan terenyuh, serius ngga boong! Ntar batal puasa mimin ^^v Well, check this out! *Udah sekitar 2 hari ini mimin sholat tarawih sendirian, nggak ada temennya (melas banget!). Temen mimin yang namanya Brilli, yang biasanya tarawih bareng mimin lagi halangan, jadi gabisa deh. Terus Ibu mimin juga lagi halangan, Ayah mimin sakit, lengkap sudah! T.T Tapi itu nggak menghalangi niat mimin buat tetep sholat tarawih di Masjid, Alkhamdulillah :). Akhirnya malam itu (malam ke 21), mimin berangkat ke masjid sendirian. Kebetulann jarak antara

Hello bloggers! It has been long time for us not to meet each other yaa? Hehe. I am busy enough, because some of exams yesterday. I almost a month didn't post anything over here right? Now I'm gonna tell you a little about my experience :) FIRST! *moreless 4 weeks ago, i got my result of 4th semester in 11th grade. I was really exicted because I expected so much more than 3rd semester. And how blessed I was! Allah had given me more than I expected before, I was so blessed and thankful! Yea, even I wasn't top ten but, I was grateful! :) SECOND! *I got 3 weeks off school, it was so awesome because I never got long holiday as long as this haha lol :p, I was really enjoy it! I travelled to Madiun, my grandma's house. Hunted for some books, shopping, and so on. THIRD! *July 15th 2013, school started. With new stuffs, new class, new partners, but old friends haha. I'm happy because I could join in same class with one of my best friends and two of my good friend