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Dear My Grandpa. I miss you so badly :')

I hope you alright in Heaven. And i wish we can meet soon in peaceful place :')

July, 30th 2007

I still remember this day, when you passed away and i felt part of me suddenly gone.
God, took your soul away before let you see me get succsess.
But i believe, there's something good behing something bad.

that night, i studied together with my friend, Sinta. As usual, i studied some lesson yeaa i forgot what lesson that we were talked about. But, suddenly i sang Alda Risma song, the tittle is "AKU TAK BIASA". I dunno, i just sang it and Sinta asked me to stopped. And then, we continued our studied together.

an hour left, and i heard phone rang. Sinta ran and took the phone, but i ignored and i still studied as well. And suddenly Sinta screamed to me, she called me and she said "Dina, your grandpa. You grandpa passed away. Your mom just called, and she asked you to go home soon because she said that have to go to Lumajang soon". And you know what am i act? I just silent, it just like im not stand on the earth, it just like speechless, shocked! :'( My knees so weak, my body too. My heartbeats faster and my eyes couldnt handled the tears.But i still could kept it. And i took my bag, and went home with my bycycle.


At home, i entered and i saw my mom cried, but i still shocked and held this tears. I saw may dady called my uncle, and he was cried too. I never saw my dady cry before. And he did it tonight. My mom asked me to took some of clothes and went to Lumajang soon. I entered my room, and yes! i cried, really deeply cried. And that night i felt ALLAH isn't fair to me. He took my lovely grandpa so early. PAIN, CRY, SAD, BAD, SHOCK, UBELIEVEABLE, MIXED TOGETHER :'(



2 weeks before he passed away ~


2 weeks before he was gone, a male artist was passed away. His name is Taufik Savalas. And my grandpa said "How pity he is, he's so kind and good person. But he died by tragic accident". And i answered "Yes paa, im so sorry to hear that". I dont have any feeling if he will passed away i just feel as usual in that time.


1 day before he passed away

According to my grandma said to me, one day before he passed away, he cleaned all bathrooms in his house (he has 2 bathrooms). My grandma asked "Why you cleaned it all?" and he answered "Yes, because TOMORROW, ALL MY CHILDREN WILL VISIT US". Yes, he is true. We came to Lumajang the day after, but we came because of him :'(

2 weeks before he passed away, he picked me up. He wanted me to went to Lumajang to having holidays over there. And i joined him. YES! I am his beloved grand daughter :') and im proud and also thankful.
In bus (IT WAS NIGHT WHEN I TELL THIS), theres a seller. he sell some snacks, and my grandpa bought me, the name is "GEDAWUNG". First, i dont wanna it at all, because it has no good taste, but when i tasted it again, i hooked and i asked him to bought me one more.


Now,5 years left. He already gone. Physically, he isn't here. But, actually i believe he is see me from the heaven, and he is smile now. And i keep him, in my deeply heart :')


I MISS YOU GRANDPA :') <3

Your beloved grand daughter

Casilda Aulia R.

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